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ERGHHH.
ate 500kcal worth of disgusting food,
i then purged until nothing more could come out at all,
then passed out
good you deserve it fatarse

working out more

down 1lb this morning, good.

had to come of the fast today, only going to consume liquids.

feeling fat,

quadrupled the workout.

Fasted today, good :)

Doubled my workout, even better :) :)

I feel worthy today.

Hope i loose tomorrow.

Hey girls! How was everyone's break!? I'm so sad it's monday and I'm back to class. I had a wonderful break, but only 2 weeks left then winter break. Headed to Arizona on the 11th, visiting some family, exctied about escaping the constant rain of the pacific northwest. I've maintained all week which I'm trying to remind myself is better than gaining, but it's still super frustrating. Usually after I maintain for 4-5 days on the 6th or 7th day I lose about 3lbs. I'm hoping that happens soon. I'm so close to my LW which isn't very low but it's MY LW so to reach it again would be happiness for me. I hope to be -5 of my LW by Christmas which I don't really see as being hard at all. That's only about 12 lbs. 3 lbs a week is nothing if I stay on course. I hope you're all well!

<3

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hey ladies,
i'm so glad i have this community to go to. i've been so stressed with school and dance and finals are in two weeks and our ballet is this weekend. i've decided though because i weigh the same as i did at the recital in the summer. for the upcoming recital i want to look super skinny. i'm going to fast as much as i possibly can, i just have to get there and i know i can do it. this is going to be the year where i am the skinnest girl on the stage and where i don't feel like a cow. i'm starting my fasting tomorrow and the only trouble i'm really going to have is on the weekends where we eat as a family but i can get away with purging it. they know but they don't say anything,
speaking of purging...i've been having a really weird thought processes on purging, like i can wait to purge. i've been looking forward to purging and i can't explain why. i was watching television today and envisioning what it was going to be like to purge my dinner that we hadn't even had yet. and i just got this rush and i'm not sure what is going on but when i'm looking forward to purging food that hasn't even been fixed yet i thought it was a bit ridiculous. am i going crazy? i've been thinking alot about those movies on youtube that you can find like "sharing the secret" and its just been replaying over and over in my head. i've been so stressed that my friend from england asked me if i wanted to spend new years with him since he could come and i've been so worked up that i've forgotten about it until i finally got on and saw that it was almost december.
my goal for may is to lose as much as possible but i would definately like to lose at least thrity pounds...i know i can do it, i've done it before but this time it will be for good, i'm sick of being the fat girl. i feel more motivated when i read books and watch movies about girls with eating disorders, i know that is kind of weird to but it makes me feel like i can get way down too. sorry for such a long post and hardly any of it making sense. at least one holiday is over with though....oh and i lost today and hopefully i'll lose tomorrow too. i actually went out and bought some laxatives, i ran out literally months ago and i've yet to be to the store by myself where i could have gotten them except for the other day and i forgot how much they helped on the weekends...anyway ladies, i've got more work to do but i needed to stop by and read posts and put one up to make me feel less stressed and give myself a bit of a break.

xoxo

just had the most fantastic workout :)

get rid of this dinner.


fatarse.

Fasted yesterday, success.

Today has not been to bad, i've mannaged on tea and coffee.
Right now got a decaff coffee.

Bad news, i have to sit and eat at the family meal tonight, its a roast chicken, i'm eating 200kcal of chicken at the most, family meals are so akward, it feels like all eyes are on what your eating.


"people don't see me, no one sees me"

Hey girls! Welcome to the worst holiday of the year. An entire holiday dediated to over eating. Hang in there and stay strong girls!

<3

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Thanks for joining us. To our American friends, have a fantastic Thanksgiving. To all of our international neighbors, we'll eat a little extra for you!

Hey girls! I've missed you all so much. Homework has been keeping me so busy but I finished the draft of this huge paper today and turned it in and now I'm on thanksgiving break for a WHOLE WEEK. I will have much more time now to focus on posting, relaxing, not eating, and reading for FUN. Really weird things, yes, but things that make me happy. I hope you're all well. My dad's been back in town and will be (thanks a lot stupid holiday's) for the next week. He's been cooking me meals non stop and I feel so bad when I have to fold up 2/3 of it in a napkin and throw it in the trash. LIke today he made me FOUR pancakes . \I mean who eats FOUR? So I threw three away in a napkin on my lap then slowley at the last one with no syrup or butter that's for sure. Thankfully they were pretty small, not like restaurant size of anything...like the size of my palm. I've managed to only eat 1/3 of my breakfast he's been making me the past few days then throw the rest away and same with dinner, and with the meals he's been making me I ALWAYS skip lunch. Thankfully I haven't gained. I mainted for awhile then I lost a pound today which I'm so excited about. I had an orange juice/vodka mix just a little while ago but it was pretty small. I can feel the weight on me though just from the liquid...cause it was only about 100 cals. But it will effect my weight on the scale so I'm just going to weigh myself in the morning. Hoping for another pound lost! Not really worried about thanksgiving. My grandma is out of town and we always go to her place but she won't be there and now that it's just me and my dad living in the house we've decided to stay in put up our christmas tree and watch Miracle on 34th street (with natalie wood!) which is a family tradition, and order pizza. Normally this would freak me out, but it's so much more relaxing to hide food from my dad at home when it's just us rather than hide food at a giant table with all my family there staring at me wondering how much I'll eat this year. I'm thrilled to say the least. This holiday really disgusts me. It's so historically innocrrect too. BUT I tresure the time it gives me away from school, so I can't complain much! Stay strong this week ladies. I know it will be hard. Holiday's SUCK.

<3

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hey ladies,
so we are starting eating disorders in abnormal psych today and i once again jumped on the subject. well there is a girl in my group and our presentation is on "Should people with anorexia nervosa have the choice to refuse life sustaining treatment?" Well we all think they should have the choice or option to refuse it. Anyway there is a girl in my goup who was anorexic,she said she was anorexic for like a year and a half. I didn't know her until now but all i could think was, "Yes, you've got somebody in your group who knows exactly how you feel and thinks" my problem is, she is going to share her story i guess with the rest of the class, and she knows about my ed's, if you didn't know i've been diagnosed with both bulimia and anorexia. I just don't want to share that with people. I'm glad she can be that open about it but i just can't.
I hate thanksgiving, all the food, and all the looks. Last year i wasn't in the country thankfully, but the year before that when a plate of food was handed to me at the dinner table in front of everybody, my mom looked at me and said "Are you going to actually eat it or eat it and then go throw up?" I was completely mortified by the incident and i just wanted to crawl in a hole and die. Now when ever our family gets together, mainly on holidays, i just relive that in my mind over and over again so vividly. Maybe we should just celebrate holidays by everyone fasting. I'm going to try and get away with as little food as possible and just lots of fluid. Anyway ladies, it looks like its been awfully quiet around here. Where is everybody?

take care:)

xoxo

hey ladies,
sorry i've been away for so long. i've been super busy with school and this is the first chance i've gotten to sit down and use my computer for something other than typing up papers...anyway i went out the other day and bought some serious binge food, and i c/s the food and i lost two pounds in one day from it.
anyway in nutrition we are doing a section on e.d. and he kept looking at me because for part of our self assesment we had to keep a food journal and submit it to him and because i know after reading literally hundreds he wasn't going to remember or seek me out that i didn't cheat and make it look like i was actually eating. anyway i've been super busy with nutcracker and hopefully i'll lose a few more before the show.

xoxo

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